i miss home

i miss my home..my family..i miss sbn!!
3 days more..thn i can c my oldest bro jor...thn i can bec sbn jor!!
ka yao yan yan~
i wan meet v my jeemuis...
i wanna b free~~
i wan my holidays~although is only 2 weeks++
i wan finish exam!!!!
im waiting for thurs now..
yea~
fishy~wait for me!!
i wan sing k!!

arhhhhh

still got one week!!
2 more papers!!
ka yao lee chor yain!!

boring....

aiyer.....everyday study study study...will i become crazy???

weather

today is damn hot..haha!
but morning's weather is still ok..quite nice cause got wind..
juz now take a nap my whole body got sweat..
bad..my throat is very 'dry' now..haha..hard to breathe..
bad day..

4pm

actually..is nothing..
i do really want to talk to him but shame..
because this argument is made by me..
i should not be so emo..but i still cannot control it..
i really cannot manage it well..
i do really want to say sorry to him..
he apologized to me thru sms..
because we havent meet each other yet..

im still sitting in front of fish..
fish will go for her class at 6pm..
and he and i will continue to stay in the library until 9pm..
thn only we meet fish and take dinner+supper..

i do really wanna said sorry to him..
not thru sms but is face-to-face..
fish left only we meet..
i think this is quite a good way for me to stay calm..
i might have to stay away from him thn only can think deeply..

congrate to myself that i still can study well juz now..
im ok now..really well..pretty well..
it's my fault..aih~

today's lesson: learn a good way to prevent argument to become seriously!

sad

he said me stupid with anger tone today..
im shocked..
we argued..
but this was his first time to said me stupid..
im really sad of this..
duno wat can do..
i know he felt sorry to say that word to me..
but he did nothing again..
din apologize to me..
say nothing at all..sad..
im not angry but im sad in that circumstance..
how?

im now at library with fish..
i walked faster than him juz now..
we get lost..
we cant find each other now..
because i entered the library earlier than him..
he din call me and on the other hand i din call him too..
sad..
duno how to face him..
juz feel dun wanna c him now..
i bet him has the same feeling with me now..

hmm...
few more minutes i will go to find him i think..

sigh~
an argument..
regular argument..
hard to be solved even though we apologize to each other..right?

im really personality involved..too emo..
girl's personality...
likes to argue although it is a small case..
likes face somemore..
not easy to apologize at first..
bad habit..
cannot be changed..
this is a reality, a fact that lasting forever..
shit!

next appointment..

28th of August 09 is my next appointment with the dentist..
i really hope that that is my very very last appointment..
it is very tiring that something putting on my tooth..boring..life is not happy with it..
i have to take care of the rubbers which i am wearing everyday..
be carefull to prevent it from broken and swallow it into my stomach with food..
juz now was my second time to swallow the rubber unintentionally..
thn have to wish it will come out with my shit on tomorrow...
everybody keep asking me when only i take it off..
i wonder when and do hope that that day will coming soon~
tired...
it follows me bout 3 years..
3 years already..
3 years are not a short period..

i wan my tooth will be free on 28th of August!!
if not, i will be very disappointed to myself... :<